There is something fascinating about reading other peoples mail if you are allowed to. Here is your chance to read the letters of American writer Sylvia Plath， which she wrote home to her mother from a hotel where she had a summer job as a waitress. At the time， she was a college student and was still at the start of her writing career. Through the letter we learn of her changing thoughts and moods concerning， boys and writing.
THE BEGINNING OF A CARREER
The Belmont Hotel， cape Cod
June 11， 1952
Your amazing telegram [telegram announcing $500 Mademoiselle prize for "Sunday at the Mintons，" which I forwarded] came just as I was scrubbing tables in the shady interior of The Belmont dining room. I was so excited that I screamed and actually threw my arms around the head waitress who no doubt thinks I am rather insane！ Anyhow， psychologically， the moment couldnt have been better. I felt tired —— ones first nights sleep in a new place never is peaceful —— and I didnt get much！ To top it off， I was the only girl waitress here， and had been scrubbing furniture， washing dishes and silver， lifting tables， etc. since 8 a.m. Also， I just learned since I am completely inexperienced， I am not going to be working in the main dining room， but in the "side hall" where the managers and top hotel brass eat. So， tips will no doubt net much less during the summer and the company be less interesting. So I was beginning to worry about money when your telegram came. God！ To think "Sunday at the Mintons" is one of two prize stories to be put in a big national slick！ Frankly， I cant believe it！
The first thing I though of was： Mother can keep her intersession money and buy some pretty clothes and a special triporsomething！ At least I get a winter coat and extra special suit out of the Mintons. I think the prize is $500！
ME！ Of all people！…
So its really looking up around here， now that I dont have to be scared stiff about money … Oh， I say， even if my feet kill me after this first week， and I drop 20 trays， I will have the beach， boys to bring me beer， sun， and young gay companions. What a life.
Love， your crazy old daughter.
June 12. 1952
No doubt after I catch up on sleep， and learn to balance trays high on my left hand， Ill feel much happier. As it is now， I feel stuck in the midst of a lot of loud， brassy Irish Catholics， and the only way I can jolly myself is to say， "Oh， well， its only for a summer， and I can maybe write about them all." At least Ive got a new name for my next protagonist —— Marley， a gabby girl who knows her way around but good. The ration of boys to girls has gotten less and less， so Ill be lucky if I get tagged by the youngest kid here. Lots of the girls are really wise， drinking flirts. As for me， being the conservative， quiet， gracious type， I dont stand much chance of dating some of the cutest ones … If I can only get "in" as a pal with these girls， and never for a minute let them know Im the gentle intellectual type， itll be O.K.
As for the Mlle news， I dont think its really sunk in yet. I felt sure they made a mistake，orthat youd made it up to cheer me. The big advantage will be that I wont have to worry about earning barely $300 this summer. I would really have been sick otherwise. I cant wait till August when I can go casually down to the drug store and pick up a slick copy of Mlle， flip to the index， and see ME， one of two college girls in the U.S.！
Really， when I think of how I started it over spring vacation， polished it at school， and sat up till midnight in the Haven House kitchen typing it amidst noise and chatter， I cant get over how the story soared to were it did…
I get great pleasure out of sharing it [her feeling about the story] with you， who really understand how terribly much it means as a tangible testimony that I have got a germ of writing ability. The only thing， I probably wont have a chance to win Mlle again， so Ill try for a guest editorship maybe nextormy senior year， and set my sights for the Atlantic. God， Im glad I can talk about it with you —— probably youre the only outlet that Ill have that wont get tired of my talking about writing …
Speaking again of Henry and Liz， it was a step for me to a story where the protagonist isnt always ME， and proved that I am beginning to use imagination to transform the actual incident. I was scared that would never happen， but I think its an indication that my perspective is broadening.
Sometime I think —— heck， I dont know why I didnt stay home all summer， writing， doing physical science， and having a small part-time job. I could "afford" to now， but it doesnt do much good to yearn about that， I guess. Although it would have been nice. Oh well， Ill cheer up. I love you.
Your own Sivvy
June 15， 1952
… Do write me letters， Mommy， because I am in a very dangerous of feeling sorry for myself … Just at present， life is awful. Mademoiselle seems quite unreal， and I am exhausted， scared， incompetent， unenergetic and generally low is spirits … Working in side hall puts me part， and I feel completely uprooted and clumsy. The more I see the main hall girls expertly getting special dishes， fixing shaved ice and fruit， etc.， the more I get an inferiority complex and feel that each day in side hall leaves me further behind … But as tempted as I am to be a coward and escape by crawling back home， I have resolved to give it a good months trial —— till July 10 … Dont worry about me， but do send me little pellets of advice now and then.
June 24， 1952
… Last night I went on a "gang" birthday party at the "Sand Bar" where we sang and talked for a few hours. There were about forty of us kids from the hotel. I managed by some magic to get myself seated next to a fellow in his first year at Harvard Law —— and he was just a dear … The best part was when we came back. It was a beautiful clear starry night， and Clark went in to get me two of his sweaters to wear because it was cold， and brought out a book of T.S. Eliots poems. So we sat on a bench where I could just barely read the print， and he put his head in my lap and I read aloud to him for a wile. Most nice. The only thing is I am so inclined to get fond of someone who will do things with me like that —— always inclined to be too metaphysical and serious conversationally —— thats my main trouble … So glad to hear the check from Mlle is real. I hardly could believe it. Just now I am mentally so disorganized that I cant retain knowledgeorthink at all. The work is still new enough to be tiring， what with three changes a day into uniforms， and I am so preoccupied by mechanics of living and people that I cant yet organize and assimilate all the chaos of experience pouring in on me. In spite of everything， I still have my good old sense of humor and manage to laugh a good deal of the time … Ill make the best of whatever comes my way.
Much love to you，
Phrases & Expressions
no doubt without doubt； certainly
to top it off（usu. introducing sth. undesirable） in addition to everything else
be stuck in be unable to escape from （a disadvantageous position）
know ones way around/ about understand how things happen in the world； be experienced in the way of the world
as for in regard to； speaking of； concerning
sink in get a firm place in the mind； become fully understood
get over believe； learn to live with the shock of （sth. Very surprisingorshocking）
set ones sight for aim for， wish to getorwin
cheer up become hopeful， joyousorglad； stop being sadordiscouraged
at present at this time； now
what with as a result of （used to introduce the reasons for a particular situation， esp. an undesirable one）
be preoccupied by/with have the mind fixed on sth.， esp. sth. worrying so that no attention is paid to anything else
make the best of do as well as one can with
come ones way happen to one
Harvard Law （School）
T.S. Eliot T.S. 艾略特